Ok, reposting this one cause apparently i updated it as 'photo' and not as 'blog'
Yeeee!! And here it iss! My Christmas present for yoou!! FINALLY! hahaha oh my gosh, i really can't believe i've finally updated...is it going to rain? hahaha
Okay, hope you'll enjoy it :)))
Let me know!! XOXO
After the meeting with Jeremy I went back home, I took off my shoes and I laid on the bed, as this could help me in figuring out what he just told me.
She was coming back. Hayley Nichole Williams, that Hayley Nichole Williams, after all these years.
That thought was stuck on my mind, I barely could believe it.
And I was going to meet her tomorrow, and I should have spend time with her since I was Jerm’s bestman and she was Kat’s first bridesmate, and as Jeremy told me the other dudes and dudettes would have come the next week. Awesome, just awesome.
My cellphone started ringing from my jeans pocket, it was Jenna.
We have had another quarrel this morning. Yeah, another.
We were just having more problems since I asked her to become my girlfriend, she took it like I wanted to marry her, but for me it was too early. I would have married her, of course, I loved her, but…not now.
I talked about this with Jeremy, he said it was a passing moment, nothing to worry about.
"Tell me" I said quite annoyed "Josh! Why didn’t you call me?! I’ve been worried, you know?" I rolled my eyes "Whatever" it was so annoying when she acted like nothing had happened.
"You ok?" "You’re unbelievable! Isn’t that you who called me a asshole and whatever this morning?!" she sighed "Look Josh, I’m sorry, ok? What else should I say? Do I have to beg for your forgiveness? It was also your fault, you know how much my mom cares about these kind of things" "Jenna, again, I do wanna marry you, but not now! The dinner with your parents thing is unnecessary now!" "Whatever Josh, anyway Brenda gave me two tickets for the cinema tomorrow night" "Which movie and what time?" "They reply Casablanca at the Franklin Theater, at 9 pm" I snorted "Jen, we’ve seen it like…3, 4 times?" "3 times! And it’s a lovely movie! C’mon Joshie! Do it for me!" I rolled my eyes "Whatever…but why don’t you bring Brenda with you?" "I wanna go with you!" "Okay…I’ll pick you up at 8, then. Bye Jen" "Bye Joshie, love you!" I ran a hand through my hair "Love you too".
The day after seemed to arrive very (maybe too?) fast.
Me and Jeremy were waiting at the arrivals at the International Airport in Nashville, I should say that there had been something in my mind –when Jeremy asked me to go with him- that was saying to tell him 'no', but I really hadn’t had a choice, I was his best man, and also one of his best friends, I had to calm down, it was so ridiculous, maybe she just let go all that happened years ago, so it couldn’t be this big deal.
When the automatic sliding doors opened I bet that for a second my heart had stopped beating... as my breath.
There was a lot of confusion but Jerm found Kat without problems, like he had a sort of x-ray vision, I could see a brand new lovely smile on his face and then, just when I turned my eyes to their direction, I saw her, in a cute pale pink dress, black leggings, her now flame orange hair was grabbed in a rubber band, two trolleys and violet ray-ban on.
Me and Jeremy reached them as my heart, my head, my whole body were incredibly shaking.
"Hon!!" Jeremy opened his arms and Kat fell into them and soon after they shared a lovely kiss, I couldn’t help but smile at such sweetness.
I looked at Hayley, she was softly smiling at that vision too taking off her sunglasses, and I went blush as she turned her –breathless, amazing- eyes to me.
I quietly waved at her and she half smiled, giving it in return and coming to me.
If my heart was like shaking two minutes before, now it was really about to explode.
"Hey Josh! It’s been so so long, uh?" I nodded "Y-yeah…how are ya doing? I mean, family, work, life in the UK…that stuff, you know" she smirked "Everything’s doing great, thanks. Actually I think this is my golden year" I smiled, somehow I was happy to see her happy, even though everything was changed, even though I haven’t seen her in years, and having her by my side in that moment was really melting my mind.
"You?" I scrolled my head. C’mon back on Earth Joshua. "Me what?" yeah, you’re so shrewd. Were you sleeping? C’mon dude! "You about how’s going your life here, Josh" she seemed a bit annoyed "Oh, yeah, sorry, i was just...overthinking" well, at least i had told her the truth "I’m doing fine too, you know, same routine everyday…life here is always so" "Still living with mama and daddy?" I giggled "Thank God nope, I have my own home sweet home now" she smirked "No Mrs Farro?" my heart ceased beating "Mmh…well" c’mon Joshua what’s the deal in telling her you actually have a girlfriend? "We broke up like 3 days ago, we were only dating, not a very big deal, we spent just 3 months together" the fuck dude?! Actually you’ve been dating for almost 2 years now!
She seemed sorry "Oh…I didn’t mean, you know" I tried to calm her down "Don’t worry, I’m not really that hurt…she…she just wasn’t the one for me" I glanced at her, but before we could continue any talking Jerm and Kat came closer to us "Hey, you guys remember each other! That’s great!" we nodded, I forced a smile.
How could have I ever forget about her? She's always been there, stuck on my mind, there has been no way to erase her even though I tried.
"So" Kat started "For now it’ll be only 4 of us, the other groomsman and bridesmaids will join us the next week to choose and try the dresses" I nodded "Yeah, Jeremy apprised me about this yesterday" Kat smirked turning her smile to Jeremy "Great! So…see you tomorrow morning? We’ll go choose the flowers" Jeremy rolled his eyes and I laughed, Kat noticed it and quietly punched him on the shoulder "Alright, alright! I’ll let you know tomorrow morning, she wants to take a trip of the town and see all the florists for now" I nodded "Perfect, hear you tomorrow then" Jeremy nodded and after had melted Kat’s embrace he came at me for a hug "Thanks again, Josh" I smiled "Any time, bro" I hugged Kathryn and then I went to Hayley "Want a ride?" she shook her head a bit "No, don’t worry, I’ll go with Jerm and Kat…thanks anyway" I forced a smile "You’re welcome" I turned another time to them making waving for a last time and I went back to my car.
I arrived at home, I really didn’t want to go to the Cinema with Jenna.
After a like 20 minutes of tv-watching from the sofa, my cellphone started ringing. Honestly, I was worried it could be her, but apparently it wasn’t.
"Hello?" "Josh? Hey, it’s Hayley" I froze. I wasn’t dreaming or having hallucinations or that kind of stuff, right?
"Oh…hey, Hayley, tell me" "Aw…first of all I had your number from Jeremy. Is that I don’t know what to do tonight, Kat and Jeremy are gone to the research for the florists for tomorrow, and actually you’re the only one I know now, since I don’t come here in like 7 years" "Mmh…yeah, don’t worry, actually I haven’t had any plan for tonight" Joshua Neil Farro! What the heck are you thinking of?!
"Awesome! Wanna hang out and, I don’t know, take a cup of chocolate?" I smirked "Why not. Just tell me where should I come to pick you up" she hesitated a bit for the answer "Well, you can come at the Franklin Theatre" "Oka-" I stopped my sentence. No way, Jenna could be there. "Look Hayley, I’ll pick you up from your home, ok? It’s simpler for me" "Mh, okay then, at 8 at the 419, Main Street" "Franklin, right?" "Yep. Okay, see you later Josh" I smiled "Yeah, see you later".
I closed the call with a naïve and silly smile on my face, like a child who’s opening his Christmas gifts.
So maybe she had forgave me after all, maybe she had understood that it wasn’t all my fault... I really wanted to hang out with her.
I called Jenna "Joshie!" "Hey Jen…listen, can we go tomorrow to Casablanca? I have an appointment with a friend I haven’t seen in ages" "…What?! Are you kidding Josh, right?!" I rolled my eyes "Jen, I told you, we can go tomorrow evening" "No way! They’re not at you dependence! I could had organize I a different way!" I ran a hand trough my hair, looking down on the pavement "Jen, I know, I’m sorry, but she’s just arrived" I stopped. Shit.
"She?! It’s a she?! You asshole! I can’t believe you can’t come to our date for another girl! Don’t even dare to talk to me this time, go fuck yourself Josh, I’ll go with Brenda" and before I could say anything she had closed the call.
I really couldn’t stand her sometimes, and I thought about cutting all off, but then the fact that we’ve been dated for almost 2 years…I really couldn’t do that, it would be stupid to leave her only for her strange moods or whatever, she also had the great personality for which I felt in love the first time, I had to love also her defects. Nobody’s perfect, am I right or am I right?
I prepared myself for the best and I went to the car, destination Franklin.
I finally found her house and after had honked two times she exited the main door, beautiful as always, her flame orange hair was falling softly on her shoulders.
Oh, what was I saying? She seemed more beautiful than ever every new time I saw her. Could that be possible?
"Hello Josh" she entered the car and took her seat, blocking her safe belt and giving me a quickly and lovely smile "Hello there, is that your new house or?" she turned her head, looking at it through the window "Well, it’s my mom’s, she moved here from Nashville like 2 years ago, so I’m staying with her" I started the car "I see…well, where do you wanna go?" she bit her lip "Mmh…actually I have no idea, so I’ll trust you. Just bring me to a place where they do the best hot chocolate" I smirked while the car started running along the street "The Loveless cafè in Nashville…also, you’ll have to try their biscuits" she giggled. Gosh, the most adorable giggle ever. What?! You have a girlfriend Josh. A girlfriend.
She interrupted the conflict with my conscience "Okay then, let’s go to this Loveless cafè"
We didn’t talk for the whole ride, the only voice was Robert’s from The Cure.
We arrived, the place was as always adorable and comfy, I loved it, one of my favorite cafè.
We took our seat and the maid arrived straightaway, taking our orders of the two cups of chocolate.
"So…" she said for breaking the embarrassing silence that took place around us "So…" I repeated, looking at my hands on the table "Okay, Josh, look. We’ll have to ‘work’ together, so we have to stand each other, at least till the end of the wedding. It’s not much, right?" I was kinda speechless.
"Well…no, i think" she sighed "Great" I glanced at her "Hayley…you still hate me?" she looked at me quite disoriented from that question-statement.
"I…Josh, I don’t hate you, but…I really loved you, and you broke my heart in that awful way…but I decided to give you a second chance, even if I think they don’t ever matter, cause people never change… but I want to, but don’t take it for granted." I nodded "I missed you so much, Hayles" she smiled softly "Yeah, hard to admit it but I missed you too, Joshie" I glanced at her with a new spark into my eyes, hearing her calling me in that way was so different from the way Jenna did, it was so…special.
I stood up and I hugged her, for then going back to my seat.
"So…is there anyone else in your heart now?" she smirked and then nodded quietly. It kinda hurt my heart.
"Yeah…to be honest I’m engaged, we're going to marry the next month" I stared at her kinda shocked.
She would be married…the next month? "Josh, you ok?" I scrolled quietly my head and nodded "Y-yeah, that’s just…wow, congratulations then!" she smiled "Thanks" meanwhile the two cups arrived "And…well, I wanted to invite you, I’d like to have you there, after all you’ve been one of my best friends" I nodded, but it was like my heart had been pierced from a blame and then chocked with a plastic bag.
I nodded "Sure" she smiled and we started drinking the hot chocolates, but we just bursted into giggles as we both burnt our tongues at the same time, but soon after we stared seriously at each other’s eyes.
She looked down, maybe she remembered the same, those days when we were still a respectively 17 and 16 year couple, we laughed at everything so easily, we used to enjoy the other’s presence so much, we really loved each other, even though we were only teens.
"I’ve been a total asshole, Hayles…an asshole for have not stopped you, but I’ve never cheated on you" "I believe in what I see, Josh, and your lips were glued to hers. I wasn’t blind, and you were enjoying that kiss as well" I sighed "Hayley, you never let my explain" "Explain what, Josh?!" 2Okay, it’s true, I enjoyed that kiss as well, but then I forced her away cause I understood it was wrong, it was enormously wrong, I never felt what I felt for you for any other girl I’ve been with" she looked down "It took me more than 4 years to forget you and to carry on with my love life. Chad and I have been dated for only 1 year, and then he asked me to marry him. We’ve been best friends for…7 years, and we dated for 3 years, so don’t think I haven’t been sad for this, you can’t imagine how you made me suffer, ok? You can’t imagine how much I loved you" she said with watery eyes.
I really didn’t know what to do, what to say, my mouth was dry, speechless.
So I just stood up, I went next to her and I kneeled a bit to reach her face frequency, and then, as our glances met, I connected my lips with hers, so soft and warm, so flawless.
I knew it was wrong, but it was like I couldn’t control myself, I had to do it, even if I felt incredibly guilty, I had a girlfriend and she was about to get married, but she seemed to don’t care as she kissed me back, her tongue started dancing quietly with mine, but we had to stop as we remembered that we were in a public place.
"We…we should finish the chocolate" I just nodded, going back to my seat.
We didn’t talk for the rest of the moment at the cafè, we went out from it after I had paid the bill.
She walked away very fast but I reached her "Hayley?" she turned at me "What?" "Where are you going?" "To your car, just bring me back home, Josh" "But…" I didn’t know what to say.
She looked at me "But what?! You kissed me! You just kissed me after I told you I’m going to marry in less than 2 months!" she breathed in "Josh. Everything has ended that day of 7 years ago, ok? I don’t wanna ruin Kat’s wedding, we’ll also have to work together, so…let’s pretend that nothing happened" I went to the car.
I really couldn’t say anything, she was right, even though she seemed to enjoy that kiss too.
But I was making her suffer again, and I couldn’t do that, I didn’t want to do that, not again.
I entered the car "I’m sorry, Hayley, i…I just didn’t think, I’m a total jerk, sorry" "But I enjoyed the kiss as well!" she cried, now I really had no idea of what to say.
She looked down "Nobody will know, it’s all ended there, ok? Like nothing's happened.- she said not looking at me. I just nodded.
Woo! Finished. When will you come Chapter 3? I have no idea...i hope it won't take this long as this chapter! hahaha
Anyway, hope it hasn't been disappointing! ;))