Okay, I'm incredibly proud of this, i can honestly say that it could be my favorite one of all the ones i wrote till now.
Hope you'll like it as much as I do! And give me all your thoughts/impression :)
“It kinda hurts” I quietly giggled, biting my lip and letting a little grimace appear on my face.
He just kept his eyes on what he was doing “I know, just… deal with it, I need other 5 minutes”
I looked at him, his serious expression made him look like a professional.
I smirked, he couldn’t even notice it because he was so much into the tattooing.
We were both so sure and excited about it, something that would have stayed on our skin forever, only thinking about it was absurd.
After what seemed like other 30 minutes of pain I could look at it with a proud and enthusiastic smile on my lips “You had to be a tattoo artist, you know?” he smiled, his deep chocolate brown eyes in mine, it melted me inside every time.
“Okay, your turn!” I stood up, putting my hand on my waist and staring at him.
He smirked, creaking his back “’Right, just…” he lingered, looking at me.
I stared at him quite upset “You don’t trust me? I trusted you!” he bit his lip and burst out laughing.
“What?” he looked at me, a lovely smile appeared on his lips “I do trust you silly, go for it” I smiled back quite amused and I wore the black gloves.
I sat next to him preparing all the stuff for the tattoo, I could feel his eyes glued on every movement I made.
I had a tattoo artist class a while ago so I quite remembered how to do them.
After a good 30 minutes of non-stop working I proudly looked at it “Even better than yours! You have to thank me, sir” I said, a vein of triumph in my voice.
He looked at it, smirking “Not at all but…nice job red”
I teasingly put my tongue out and I stood up, placing myself on his lap, my hands locked behind his neck
“I love you, just in case you didn’t know” he smiled “Yeah, I’d forgotten about it, thanks for the remind”
I smiled “You’re welcome, Farro” he stared at me, for then placing a soft kiss on my neck, chills ran along my backbone.
“This wasn’t stupid, right?” I bit my low lip, he simply shook his head “No, I think it’s the best thing we could ever do, I love its meaning” I smiled looking at it “Me too”
He kept quiet for a bit, then he slowly put me away from his lap, leaving with a quick kiss on my right cheek.
“What?” he moved near the acoustic guitar “Is this tuned?” I nodded, still wondering what he wanted to do.
“What are you up to?” “I want you to listen to this” I smirked “Now?”
He sat in front of me, nodding “Yeah, now”
I quietly nodded, not really understanding his hurry.
“It’s been a while since I started thinking about this, and I guess today is the perfect one” I smirked looking at him “For letting me hear this song, right. Okay then, play”
He smiled “Take me seriously at least!” I giggled “I’m taking you seriously! C’mon, let me hear”
He nodded “Okay then” he started playing and I quickly recognized which song it was, the one from the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, I loved that song, but I still didn’t get why he wanted me to listen to it.
He started singing, his voice was something that had always amazed and enchanted me, I remembered all those nights when we were younger, we phoned each other in the middle of the night, he started playing and singing for me trough the phone and I fell asleep with his lovely smooth voice.
“When I see your smile tears roll down my face, I can't replace, and now that I'm strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul and I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one” I smiled staring at him, I’ve always loved the meaning of that song, and it was really overwhelming that now he was singing it to me.
“I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever, I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay, It's okay, It's okay”
He smiled at me, my eyes were watery for the emotion, a silly smile was drew on my lips, I really couldn’t take it off.
“Seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us, days grow longer and nights grow shorter… I can show you I'll be the one… I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever, I'll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven”
He never took his glance away from mine, his deep eyes were filled with so many emotion that for a moment I thought I couldn’t stand them, but it was a so positive vibes, my heart was racing faster and faster and I didn’t even know why.
“Cause you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart, please don't throw that away… cause I'm here for you, please don't walk away and please tell me you'll stay… stay”
With my surprise he ended the song there, focusing on the “stay”.
I would have thought that the song really finished in that way if I didn’t knew it.
With the end of the song my breathe was like suspended, Josh kept staring at me without saying a word, and actually me too.
He looked down and then he quietly and carefully moved the guitar next to his seat.
I kept staring at him, but then something caught my attention, something he was carefully taking from his jeans pocket.
I looked back at me, I was speechless. Was he really keeping in his hand what I thought it was?
“W-what’s that?” I said, my voice came out more shaking that I wanted it to be.
He looked at it and then at me, this time not moving his glance anywhere else but my eyes.
He slowly stood up, his eyes glued to mine.
And then he did that, he kneeled in front of me, and I was sure my heart was about to explode.
“Hayley… I love you, okay? More than you could even imagine, and every single word in that song… it’s true, it’s like the words I want to tell you but I never find the courage…” my hands were shaking, my eyes didn’t blink once.
“I thought about it a lot, I thought about the perfect moment, the best way to do it… and I think is this. I’m sorry it’s not something big but… I have to do it, now or never” I was speechless, breathless, overwhelmed by a feeling I didn’t even know.
“ I promise you, no one will work harder to make you happy or cherish you more than me…if I have to be honest I can't imagine growing old with anyone else, nor do I want to”
We grinned, my eyes now were watery, I didn’t know if I could handle it anymore.
He slowly took my hand, like it was something fragile and breakable.
I looked at it and then stared back into his eyes, they were so full of emotions I couldn’t even describe.
“So, Hayley Nichole Williams… will you marry me?”
I looked at his faithful expression for what seemed hours, it was like I had forgot how to talk.
“I… yes! Good damn Josh yes!” I didn’t even give him the time to put the ring on my finger because I throw myself above him, embracing him and placing my grinning lips on his.
We totally fell on the floor but I didn’t care a bit, the happiness was so huge that you could taste it in the air.
“Can I?” I turned a bit my head and saw the ring he was still keeping in his hand.
I looked back at him, our faces so close that we could feel each other’s breath.
I smiled, my eyes were sparking “Sure”.
We stood up, both widely smiling and with our hearts beating faster than ever.
Honestly I don’t even know why we did it, but we burst out laughing in front of each other, pure laughs.
We took our breath trying to return serious, but the smile on our lips didn’t want to disappear.
I approached him and he slowly fixed a lock of hair behind my hair.
“You’re so dam beautiful, Mrs soon-to-be-Farro”
That sentence officially melted my mind.
I grinned. Hayley Nichole Farro. It sounded so amazingly good.
“And so are you Mr soon-to-be-husband” I quietly stood on my tiptoe and I met his perfect, soft lips.
“Even when death do us part” he whispered a few inches away from my lips and I smiled, looking at the tattoo we shared.
“It’s even more meaningful now, isn’t it?” he nodded “Told you it was the perfect moment” I smiled
“Right… I love you, Josh” he smirked, kissing my forehead “And I love you , most ardently” he then kissed the tip of my nose and I giggled “Pride and Prejudice, uh?”
“You’re so observant ma’am” “I know, sir” we stared into each other’s eyes and then laughed again, still in our embrace.
And in that moment I realized that I’d never been happier in my whole life.
The sky was totally gray from the dark clouds that were filling it all like a huge blanket.
I looked down, the wind kept blowing quietly, some locks of my hair were floating on my face.
I breathed out, closing my eyes, tears rolling hot and salt, I could feel them vividly on my cheeks.
“And I know I’ve told you this other billions of time, but… I miss you, Josh, and I love you, but… I can’t do this without you” my voice was shaking, tears running along my pale face like a summer rain.
He was gone. Forever.
He’s left me in the middle of our happiness.
I tried to calm the tears “We… we had to marry, you jerk! And we had to live in that huge yellow house with our numerous children and a dog”
I burst into tears, falling on the dirty ground in front of his grave.
And it was in that moment that I saw it, our matched tattoo, the “Even when death do us part” on my forearm, it was still on my skin.
“Even it…” I whispered onto my mouth, conscious of all the meanings that tattoo had for us.
I stood up, my kneels hurt, but in that moment I didn’t care.
I looked at his grave “But how? How can I live without you here with me, Josh? I don’t have anyone, you were my only reason to walk on this planet… “ I breathed out “I just want to be with you, jerk…”
I thought about it for a second “And I’ll be”.
I drove back home and I sat in front of the desk, with a paper and a pen.
I took a deep breath and I started writing.
“Love is what can bring you up as it can bring you down. I can’t live here without my love, I don’t have any reason… I know life is beautiful but I wanted to see its beauty with him by my side. I’m sorry; Hayley”
I bended the paper, I didn’t know who would have found it, and honestly I didn’t care.
I was sorry for my friends and my sister, but I couldn’t stand a life without Josh by my side.
So we would have been together, even into the death.
I searched for the gun I had in my closet, one my dad’s gave me for my security.
Yes, I was afraid, but the thought of seeing his warmth smile again was stronger than everything.
So I pulled the trigger.
This is the amazing song, in case you didn't know it ;) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRehmX3zlwE enjoy ;)) <3